[TEST] Having suicidal thoughts.

I can’t find any groups that meet or anything close to me. I want and need friends. I am feeling super beyond frightened for my future!! It’s kinda like I’m “due” or past due for a relapse…an MS “attack” as I have not had a bad one for years. But I’ve had a ton of stress and trauma over and over ..I am shocked actually that I’m doing as well as I am considering everything. Just wish I could get the scared AF feelings outta my mind!! Please! So so scared y’all